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Stappen

1 May 2018

soms denk ik om eruit te stappen
dit leven lijkt dan niet meer op te lappen

levenslang heb ik mijn best gedaan
nooit was ik genoeg, nooit heb ik voldaan

zo hard gewerkt aan andermans dromen
illusies waar ik niet van los lijk te komen

altijd geloofde ik een andere waarheid
steeds minder was ik mijzelf toegewijd

diep binnenin zit mijn unieke ik verborgen
volop bezig hun wonden te verzorgen

dichterbij komt de dag dat zij zullen zijn
stralen, geven, voorbij en vanuit deze pijn